Ugh this month has been HELL !
Yet its starting to get better. Mom has her Mojo back as I like to call it. I've been really struggling to find it lately, but I got it back ! And I am holding on for dear life to not let it go.
My house is finally looking like someone sane lives in it, maybe I will get around to inviting someone over this week.... we shall see.
I have had a lot of mental epiphanies this week, from recognising and acknowledging sources of anxiety, to figuring them out in my head... Processing !!!
I am going to refer back to my "mind palace" because I am not fully aware of the fact that I do indeed do this, maybe not in the way described, but I do have a way of compartmentalizing facts and emotions in my head, figuring out my thoughts and feelings, if I want to think them or feel them now or put them away to deal with later.
I am very good at putting things away to deal with later, just ask my Husband... this is something I do in my mind, and also emulate in real life. (Look at that... something I just figured out by typing it out in this blog... even if no one reads this POC I at least can get some good out of it)
I have been working the last few days on dealing with some of my stuff that I have put away for dealing with later.... That later is NOW... My bedroom is finally looking like a bedroom, my living room looks like people live in it, not simply "inhabit" it... I started taking my hubbies bachelor pad and turning it into a family home, and I got caught up in the making of the family and neglected the growing of my home....
It is all a work in progress, but does it make sense that I am finally falling in love with my space?
I am finally falling in love with myself?
I am finally allowing LOVE?
Pure ! Unadulterated LOVE !!!
Wow... I'm going to bed...
